You know, God’s amazing. Yesterday I had the day from hell. All started out with me forgetting my glasses at home, resulting in a migraine most of the day.😞 Came home + napped for 5 hours. Wake up at 9pm. I had no interest in doing anything premed related. Yesterday, I felt very defeated. Yesterday, I felt depressed. Yesterday, I was losing hope. I felt like I was going down the same path that I have been down several times since graduating high school. Thinking things like “maybe I am guessing all wrong, maybe I don’t belong in Medicine” ...remembering what some people have told me, “You know, Medicine isn’t for everyone”. I started to analyze my life and what I want for myself and my future. Tons of studying, money spent, debt keeps rising, missing out on so many family and friend events. 2 more years of undergrad, applying to medical school, 4 years of medical school, STEP 1,2,3 studying, applying to residency programs, 2 + years of residency and fellowship... that doesn’t even cover it all. I didn’t think it was worth it anymore. I was done, mentally checked out. But today, completely different story. Today, I felt confident. Today, I had hope. Today, I felt closer to God.
When I was younger, I remember telling my parents I wanted to be a doctor for kids with cancer. At this age, I didn’t know much other than I wanted to work with kids and deal with cancer. However, over the last few years, it has resurfaced. #pediatrichematologyoncology
🎗Remembering this, gives me hope. A sense of direction, a sense of purpose. 💕🎗 #heartforpediatrichematologyoncology #pediatriclove #love #peds #medicine #anxiety #depression #oncology #God #faith #purpose #trusttheprocess #hematology #pediatric #med #stethoscope #littmann #littmannstethoscope