Sometimes it happens, but it embarrasses me. I hate being reliant on a medication to function, but I have to realize that is just part of my biochemistry make-up. I need the balance the medicine provides. The past few days I didn’t take my anxiety meds because I hadn’t made it a priority to get to the store, I was waiting for the next paycheck, and I let it be something to ignore.
What’s it like being off?
It feels like an overstimulation of EVERYTHING! 🗣🎧🚀⏰🛎🚔🌪
People trying to talk with me turns into feeling like they are on high volume shouting at me and I can’t hear myself think and I panic more.
My thoughts race from one thing to the next and I forget what I am even supposed to be working on.
Phone alerts feel like people pounding on a door and I can’t keep up.
It isn’t 24/7 but it has its moments. I can calm myself down with tools, but it’s not enough. My workouts burn the angst, my superfood shake heals the impact stress has on my body, I take deep breaths, count down from 5, and friends can still bring me smiles and laughs.
Needless to say, I’m happy for this Monday because I am getting back to who I really am. I can focus on the positive of myself and not feel trapped or embarrassed in telling others “please excuse my inability to function normally”. I love this quote because it reminds me that even thought I have anxiety, it doesn’t have me. I have a brighter light shining inside and I get to let that burn brighter when I care for myself. So if you struggle or relate to any of this, know you aren’t alone! Here is to being more open about our mental health #endthestigma
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