@thisiswhaticarry #holdontothis #mentalhealthawarenessmonth
I've always felt like my seven year DAAP experience pulled me in various directions. I switched my major a few times, and focused on many different topics for projects. I was trying to find my voice as an artist/designer (like we all do). It took a few years, but I eventually realized a common theme to a lot of my inspiration: upbringing/father/mother/history/mental health. For awhile I avoided this pull. I guess I felt like it was expected, or that it was too easy to 'be inspired' by these things that we so normal to me.
A little background: I grew up in a small town, in a barn, next to a historic gristmill. My parents owned and operated the mill and the business. My mother is a self-taught ceramicist and her studio is located in our home. My father is a Vietnam veteran, timber framer, and the miller. To say the least, it was a creatively energizing upbringing. Along with the good came some bad. My father suffers from PTSD, and while he is the kindest and most giving man I've ever met, his mental health problems have caused interpersonal challenges.
It wasn't until I embraced this pull that I FINALLY felt passionate about the projects and research I was exploring. I realized that my roots were exactly where needed to focus. I needed to nurture this connection and let it inspire me and my work in whatever ways possible! With this came the acceptance of my own personal mental health (which I recently read that it's been proven that trauma in a father's life is passed to his offspring). My thesis project @grindandglaze
was the biggest product from this realization and is something I am continuing to develop and explore.
This is what I hold onto: my roots, my acceptance of my anxiety and depression as something that is a part of me, and knowing that it's not my fault (and working towards getting better), and always carrying the inspiration of my upbringing; the mill, the barn, my parents, with me.
I'm sharing this story because my friend @jialuni
has been working on her thesis project @thisiswhaticarry.
What do you hold onto? Her event is tonight at the @themercantilelib