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As part of Recovery Month I've been sharing parts of my own journey.
This last week has probably been one of the most testing I've had since I got clean. The temptation to just get some booze and some tramadol to numb the physical pain felt almost too big a weight to carry at times. However, I did it. No amount of pain is worth me throwing myself back down that slippery slope.
I've heard the words "but a couple of tramadol won't hurt" so many times... from people who have never been addicts... the truth is, they absolutely would of hurt me. It only took a couple to get me hooked in the first place.
It would only take 1 drink in the wrong mindset to turn me back into a drunk; if you don't take that 1 drink you can't get drunk. It's a line I walk everyday. And honestly? No thanks, I'll take the physical pain because it's much better than risking throwing myself back into a life of worrying about my next drink or my next pill or what I did the night before. It hurts me less than any walk of shame ever did. 💊
It's been baby steps and lots of rest this week. I've needed to hide to keep myself safe but here I am... still clean, still working on recovery, still able to acknowledge the things that place me at risk of a relapse.
Still clean; still grateful 💖
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It's all too hard, it's all too real