I'M BACK. After the longest and most frustrating artblock I've ever had.
This painting clearly saved my mind.
I was at a point where I had neither ideas nor something that inspired me. Every painting I created was just the biggest waste of time and paint.
I felt abandoned. From my own art. And I thought the only way to ignore this feeling was to ignore art.
And so I did. Day by day.
And "me ignoring art" grew to "me fearing art". Creativity and imagination became the things I feared the most.
And for this reason I created something none artist should ever create.
An huge artblock, which kept every inspiration away from me.
And I always thought it did not matter. I thought I could focus myself on other things. But every step, every word and every act was nothing than heartless.
Art was always there for me. Every one of my brushes knows my feelings and cares better than many people. Art was like family, like an old friend or a partner, when nobody else was. And when I started blocking art, I blocked everything I've ever loved.
And so I faced my greatest fear and my greatest love at the same time.
I took the key and opened the closed door to inspiration. Now I understand that my artblock was never about "being uninspired" but simply not being able to let the inspiration get to me.
People are always inspired. By everything and everyone. They're inspired by other people, by nature or colours. It's limitless. The only thing that feeds the artblock is the complete fear of failure. By never showing your inspiration how much it inspires you. By never being able to create the image in your head. But even if you fail it's still better to try. To let the inspiration in.
And when I opened the door, a storm of ideas flowed into my head.
And I realized that everything which inspired me was with me all the time: life, feelings, closeness to things that I love.
I wanted to express exactly these things in my painting.
To the idea in my head: I hope you aren't disappointed.
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