Bravery is rarely about doing something bold. The bravest act is often a quiet internal moment, when we sit in great discomfort, close our eyes, and gently whisper, I will stay. @laura_mckowen
One of the bravest things you can do for yourself is to not run from yourself.
I had a moment in recovery where I had a little relapse. I was doing really well then one little thing triggered me & shit hit the fan. I was in some little tiny town in Iowa getting lunch with my aunts. I ordered my food & my sandwich came out wrong. Instead of asking for them to remake it I refused to eat it & started crying, & ran into the bathroom. I was so embarrassed this happened to me in front of random people & my aunts. I didn’t want anyone to know this side of me & I knew this was not normal in anyway.
I remember looking at myself in the mirror, tears steaming down my face. I looked at myself in the eyes & was scared to actually look at myself. I was ashamed of who I was & what my life had turned into. I thought why me? No one else does this. I just want to be normal.
Eventually, I got myself together, took some deep breaths, & walked out of the bathroom. As I walked out I quietly promised myself this was not what my life was going to be like & not how I was going to live.
I had quiet a few of these tiny moments in my recovery & they ended up being HUGE.
These tiny beautiful, miracle moments are so critical in recovery. That’s one thing I always preach. Make baby steps because one day you will look back & see how far you came❤️ I have THREE 1:1 coaching spots open if you are ready to find food freedom, body love, & freedom from exercise obsession. DM me ❣️